Fights

What about me?

First and foremost, let me say sorry if you feel this is directed towards you. But i assure you, i mean no harm and i don't intend on hurting anybody's feelings.

Ok.

So, well, my friends are fighting.

I'm caught in the middle.

Again.

First fight finished.

Now, another.

Have you guys ever thought about me?

What about my needs?

Can't you see it affects me too?

Honestly, i love my friends and i treasure them dearly.

Then, sometimes, you guys are just a pain in the neck and i really want you all to shut up.

I'm not really a good friend you know.

Don't let yourself be close to me.

I don't mean to be like this but i am.

This is part of me.

I'm sorry.

But i will only end up hurting you guys some day.

Damn it!

I won't ever let anybody into my life again.

I refuse to let anything or anyone bound me.

Right now, only him remains.

I'm not referring to Goldfish-kun.

I'm referring to the person above all else. (To me that is)

And i hope he knows he's the only thing keeping me here.

Keeping me alive.

Keeping me smile.

Keeping me happy.

Keeping me contented.

That's all.

Have some religious issues to talk about but i guess i'll type it out next time.

Reduxion.

Saddistic?

Am I?

Well....

I am.

Redux.

Holidays

Sometimes...

Holidays aren't fun...

Sometimes...

I hate them...

Most of the time...

I wish you were here with me...

Reduxion.

A Lullaby For You

Short & Sweet

Cut to the chase...

Why does everything have to be so complicated?

Or is it simple but i'm making it complicated coz i can't accept the fact that it's that simple?

Honestly, what do you think of life?

To me, well, it has no meaning.

It's a routine.

I was programmed to continue on with this.

When...

When will I be happy?

I can't wait till death.

Coz they say i will live a long "happy" life.

"Happiness"

That word lingers in my empty mind.

Oh, woe is me. D:

Reduxion.

Shut up.

Just shut it ok!

Damn it!

I'm suppose to be happy today!

Why did everything go wrong at the last minute?!?

I know my problem...

I know the advice...

I have the "how"...

I have the "who"...

But i don't have the "why"...

And up until now i still don't know.

And if there's no "why", there is no "how" or "who"!

Then what is it?!?

What is my problem?!?

Why do i keep repeating my mistakes?!?

If failing is part of success then why have i not succeeded??

Why do i keep going back to step 1??

Why is it that i forget myself when i'm with you?

Why do i forget all my problems when i talk to you?

Why does my tongue slip when i tell you something?

Why can't i be happy?

Why can't people let me be happy?

If for every question there's an answer...

Then answer mine...

Coz i can't find it...

And i need help...

But most of you don't know how to...

Reduxion.

D=

Pffft...

Aww c'mon!

I just got insulted! D:

By guess who!!

...

...

...

My dad...

It stings a little i guess...

But i'm used to all this now.

What else can i do?

If i defend myself, i'm basically shortening my life span. (Which is kinda bad in a way. xD)

Happens to everyone i think.

Haha...

Yeah...

Now you know why i have a split personality!

I don't even open my mouth at home unless i need to eat or drink. =O

-nods-

In school well, total opposite. O.o

-sighs-

Btw, Goldfish-kun...

Thank you.

For making me smile lots today...

Reduxion.