Confessions & Questions

Dreams have only one owner at a time. That's why dreamers are lonely.

--Erma Bombeck

Ok, I admit it.

I hate being alone. I hate loneliness.

Who doesn't after all?

Heck, I still try and act all "cool" when I do feel lonely because I'm scared that people will see that as weakness and take advantage of that. People can be savages. :/

But why do I feel so lonely?

I don't get it.

I have friends. I have family. So, why am I not letting myself be happy? ):

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Am I wrong to like Adolf Hitler?

If you say yes, then it's probably these reasons:

-He killed 2 million Jews

-Led 50 million to death

-Cruel & vicious dictator

-Started WW2

If you say no, then it's probably these reasons:

-He was a great politician

-Greatest speaker & leader to ever live

-Led Germany out of recession in just 4 years

-Pioneered many weaponry & vehicles

If you don't care, then it's probably this reason:

-Everybody is entitled to their own opinion & beliefs

So, it's fine, right?

Now stop discriminating me and putting down my likes.

I never said anything about your likes and habits.

Those who want to live, let them fight, and those who do not want to fight in this world of eternal struggle do not deserve to live.

--Adolf Hitler

Have you ever...

...fell in love?

When you love a man, he becomes more than a body. His physical limbs expand, and his outline recedes, vanishes. He is rich and sweet and right. He is part of the world, the atmosphere, the blue sky and the blue water.

--Gwendolyn Brooks

That's what I agree with.

It's beautiful to be in love yet it can also bring you so much hurt.

I have friends who have been injured by it and broke down. Friends who have been injured but got back up.

You can't help it when you do fall in love, you know?

And you probably wouldn't notice that you've just fallen them either.

I guess what I mean to say is that, guard your heart.

Because when you let them in they might want to do some "redecorating"' and you might not like it. And when that happens, I always think to myself and say, "Is he/she worth it?". If they're not, then the best is to just stop yourself before they run you out of your own "house".

Don't worry. For every girl there's a boy and for every boy there's a girl so wait for the ones worth letting in. Don't let some stranger in just because they act like they know you and treat you well.

Return

//stretches

Ahh... It's been a while since I last came back here.

Seeing my childish posts really makes think about how selfish I really am.

Things To Do (2011):

1. Pass my public exam
2. Make more "memorable" memories
3. Pay attention in lessons
4. Improve self-confidence
5. GET A LIFE

Well, there's my plan for what's left of the year.

Oh, and I need to get me one of them autobiographies of Adolf Hitler.

So psyched about the ship trip. :D

Toodles~

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Maybe I'm just not cut out to write what I feel.

It's scary to me.

How bloggers end up having monologues with themselves. Not all of you of course.

I'm just sayin' ya know.

Stay True

Never try to be someone you're not.

'Cause, you'll only end up hurting yourself.

Like how i did.

Envy takes over right about now.

And suddenly you feel like a piece of crap because somehow, you feel less wanted compared to that person.

You wonder why, why do they get more attention? More love. More comments. More friends.

Then suddenly you start feeling depressed (again) and feel even more worthless.

You do know that you're worth more than anything you could buy don't you?

Jealousy is a cruel thing.

I feel it all the time.

We're only human.

I'm only human.

Perhaps too human...

Shallow?

What is this "emo" to you?

Is it a meme?

Do you think "emo" people are just stupid?

Why do you people constantly curse them?

Do you know what they're going through?

Did you put yourself in their shoes?

Or another proposal.

What is "anime" to you?

Is it just some "la-la" thing?

Do you think it's stupid to enjoy or i dunno just tell the world about it?

Why didn't you even try to see it from my point of view?

I've never questioned yours.

I just wanna know why you never gave it a chance.

And if you're gonna answer me like this; "So? It's just me right? I didn't say you had to follow me." etc etc.

It shows me that you are defensive against your own opinion.

Somehow, i think that you don't even know what's to hate about it.

But this is just an example.

Why are people so shallow?

Why are they're minds so shut?

Why are they just stuck to the core?

I don't understand why you need to insult something you've never delved in to.

You let me down.

I thought you were different Esile but i guess you're just a normal kid after all.

1 Day Holiday

At least i'm not too lazy today to update this blog.

Today's a holiday. For the country.

It's the Prophet's birthday i think (?).

Anyways, how did you guys celebrate Valentine's?

Do you know the history of Saint Valentine's Day?

You should check it out when you're free.

But, well, who likes reading history anyway?

Probably just a handful of people. (Including myself~ xD)

Shucks. I'm kinda sad that he asked me to be his Valentine's.

I hesitated though i wanted to say yes.

I think i was scared. Maybe.

I dunno really.

Somebody explain this to me! D:

Valentine's Day

I know it's a little early.

But here (GMT +8.00) it's exactly 7 (or is it 8) days to Valentine's~

Teehee~

I wonder if i should go classic and get chocolates. Or maybe he likes sour string tape (I know i do!)

At least i was the first to say Happy Valentine's to him. 8D

Ahaha.

Hmm... I kinda wanna prank some people for Valentine's. But i might get into some deep sh!t.

Anyways, you guys got any plans for Valentine's? :)

Or a better question yet; Who is your Valentine's?

--For me, i'm kinda torn between 2 people.