One Exception.

You are the only exception.

This song is so awesome right?? xD

Ha ha!

Speaks out to a lot of people out here.

Particularly my goldfish-kun. =3

Nya~~~

Actually, today i was kind of in a bad mood.

But i'm getting a grip on myself and doing a better job at hiding my feelings now.

It's amazing what a simple smile can do.

I think i know the reason why my probationary period extended for another 6 months.

Worst part is, i'm afraid that i'm right this time.

Because if i am,

I have to choose between my friendship and my future.

I'd obviously pick friendship but what's gonna happen if i tell my parents or anybody else for that matter?

I cannot afford to lose anything.

You know, i have only my friends keeping me here. (including goldfish-kun)

If i didn't...

I might as well just go to Canada.

Or

just put an end to everything.

Of course it'll affect everybody that i've known.

But who cares?

They'll get over it anyway.

They won't dwell over it.

They'll find a better human being and a better friend or family member.

So, i'm wondering.

If i'm going to be forgotten either way, what's there to live for?

Even death does not scare me.

It's just the pain.

I wish...

That my life was just a dream.

I could then just wake up anytime i had a nightmare.

I know it'll never happen though.

So what's my purpose?

Don't tell me God has a purpose for everyone.

Coz if he's not helping me or guiding me back to the right road now, he ain't gonna do it.

It's time to wake up.

I'm an idiot living in a make-believe world.

Wake up and face reality.

Breathing only suffocates me.

Seeing only blinds me.

Hearing only deafens me.

Believing only shatters my hope.

Hoping only destroys my belief.

Truth stabs my heart.

My heart isn't agreeing with my mind.

My mind is arguing with my heart.

My actions contradict with my feelings.

My feelings interfere with my judgement.

But I...

Just keep on smiling even when i die a little inside everyday that i'm alive.

Reduxion.